Sunday, October 28, 2018

Biggest Zinger Ever from Sweet Jess

Yep! It's Shakespeare!
Some days, when your child has died, you bend over and go silently inside your head, even three years later, Oh my God...Oh my God.... And the pain just waves through you and you cry. And you've learned enough to stop for a minute and remember the love and the laughing and the good times. Yes, that helps.

So I had a few waves today and after Rob and the pups went to bed I cried, not loudly, just a little, and I tried to figure out what the trigger was. Well I'm sure the #@%&*!! Hallmark CHRISTMAS movies that they started playing even BEFORE HALLOWEEN might have something to do with it. We all know that holidays are bittersweet without our Lovies here to be able to give to and love in the physical ways we know how.

So after last night's movies, I decided not to turn on the TV tonight, and I sat in the quiet listening to the rain for a while.

And my kitty Joey came up to sit not just next to me, but upon the pillow I had on my lap, purring all over the place and being so zen. So I petted him and told him what a shiny boy he is, my baby lynx kitty. And my heart started to settle. I thought for sure Jess wouldn't be able to connect, because though I was feeling mostly "peaceful," there was much emotion still roiling around inside.

But after a while of listening to the beautiful rain outside and petting Joey I reached for our journal and got a huge surprise.

She's been studying.... Click on the images to read the letter
I never know what I'm going to get when Jess comes in - sometimes she's her very upbeat, rollicking Earth-type self, sometimes she lets her teachers' knowledge filter down, and sometimes she brings other family spirits to visit with me. Tonight she was her rollicking self, and I could feel immediately that she felt like the cat that ate the cream...she was very happy and excited to share something new with me, and boy, yes, it is very new. I had never thought of it before. Wonder if anyone else has....

She greeted me by saying "Greetings Mamaaa! How fare thee today?" and I knew something was up. Then she told me she'd been studying history, and she explained the process of studying in her Heaven by reminding me of the Scrooge scenes in the Christmas movie (no, haven't seen that one yet this year, but I'm sure it's coming...). She said, "Here we can become observers and just like in the Christmas movie about Scrooge, we can 'be' in the scene without actually affecting it."

But THEN, she went on to say, "Do you know that this is eventually one of the ways they will learn to teach history on Earth? No need to write anything down. It's all in what you call the Akashic Records! And children will be guided into meditation to experience whatever prompts their interest about historical events."

WHAAAAAAAAaaaaaat!?

She wrote, "As you know, each one [historical event] has a million stories, a different one for each individual who lived an Earth life through it and some before and afters that felt its effects but didn't personally experience it, like children or elders!"

So of course I went "Wow Jess!" Cause what was going through my head after she said that was that I imagined what it could be like if we were all brought up with meditation. We'd be taught the process, and we could now be in a classroom studying, really studying history together this way. We could be given 20 minutes or half an hour to go to an agreed upon event, each student encouraged to explore, in meditation, whatever they were most interested in about it - could be strategy, say, if it were a battle scene, could be effects on town or family, could be politics, WHAT a lot of spherical information could be picked up. And then each student could write up or orally share their experience, and WHAT a well-rounded understanding of the event everyone could have after hearing the other students' perspectives. Can you imagine if we put aside all doubt in our ability to connect with the All That Is? Hm.... Kind of really exciting to think about.

So to get a feel for what Jess was experiencing in her learning of the Shakespeare era, I asked her about it.

How Jess perceives Shakespeare's era
"Oh I love the things they wear," she wrote, "but the living conditions were hard, especially for women of that time. They were limited as to their options - most all options."

I asked how the physical conditions were and she said, "Cold, everyone felt the cold and damp in their bones a lot, so hot food and drink was popular, plus alcohol for warmth and medicine. Bad teeth and lots of pain there, but they just pulled them, which made healing possible."

"It was smelly too," she wrote. "Much more earthy, real smells around the streets. Straw, land, fecal matter and urine, too many wandering cats. It was not as 'soft' a time as you and I know from this life."

"Why are you studying Shakespeare my darling?" I asked her.

"Because I can Momma!" she replied.

So of course I threw out the age old debate to see what she would say about it - "Well some say he was not actually one individual. Was he?"

"Well Mamaaa, he, or his writings I should say, were filtered down from one of the 'collective consciousnesses' here. There were a few individuals who could channel that wisdom and put it through their 'timeframe' Earth lens."

So I asked her, "So are you studying the stories themselves, or 'being part of that time frame' or what?"

"All of it Mamaa. I can see the writers feeling it and putting it on paper. The happenings politically around its distribution, and go into more detail about individual experiences!"

So of course, as my mind thought about this like I'm a kid in a candy store, I said, "Wow! Can you imagine what it would be like to study art that way?! I could be busy for centuries!"

And she said, "Yes! And what's happening on Earth with the technologies where artists can do videos of themselves working and teaching is 'today's' way of Earth trying to do 'as above, so below.'"

Well this concept is a ZINGER for me. Can you imagine what we could learn and do if 1) we were raised knowing we are spirits being human and we have access to the higher "worlds," 2) we were trained to trust our gifts from Heaven including intuition, meditation, and imagination, and 3) we were raised with the "we" mentality rather than the current "every man for himself" materialistic diversion?

I think most people can't even begin to imagine what society could be like if we just stopped allowing ourselves to be distracted by fear, by materialism, and by the negative, petty trips these bring about. But if we start to imagine what we could bring about if we weren't so distracted, well, of course, WORLD PEACE and NO MORE HUNGER would be on the list, because what becomes possible when we learn "spherically" is that we learn to understand things from all different points of view, and the result is compassion.

Sooner than you think, Momma.
So of course I asked her when she thought all this might come about, and she said, "Sooner than you might think Momma. Peeps are learning a lot about meditation for relaxation and healing and it will just be a small step from there to realizing its other gifts and uses."

Well of course. We look at meditation now as a very personal thing. But it also has a "community" purpose. WOW!!

So I started off a bit sad missing her, and she came and bopped me out of my misery - waaaay out! Such lovely things to ponder! Our gifts from Heaven coming out of the Woo closet and being studied and implemented in mainstream ways. Just think what we could accomplish and how MUCH fun it would be.

So wonderful sweet of Jess to have this kind of conversation with me. I know she's happy where she is and lord, she's learning so much and having a good time too. If I could study that way I surely would not be bored. And it could really keep me busy for a very long time....

So we talked a little more and signed off til next time, with so much love.


Joey Max, my sweet kitty who came to purr away my tears earlier is now asleep in playspace.

ZZZzzzzzzzz xoxo!!
And I'm feeling not only filled up with love from the "visit" with my Sparklepuff, but actually very excited about future possibilities! GIFT!


We are only just becoming....
Happy pondering! And again I'll recommend, if you don't already have the Insight Timer meditation ap on your phone, download it for free. It offers thousands of guided meditations, short, long, in-between, for all different purposes, healing, excellent sleep, starting your day, and a million other things. It's wonderful! You can meditate on your own without any input, as you probably already know, but for those starting out or even just those who enjoy a guided experience, check it out xo

Namaste,
Jen

Saturday, September 22, 2018

How he LOVES me!

Spiffy Bunny this week!
So the theme of my house is mostly nature - everything is plants, animals, rocks, gemstones, crystals, and things like that. When I came upon this kitschy rabbit vase in a silly catalog one day, I just fell in love with it, and my husband said he'd get it for me for Christmas. It was August.

The big box arrived on the porch and we took it into the kitchen and unpacked it to make sure it had traveled safely, and while I was exclaiming about it and falling in love with it all over the place, my husband quietly removed the packaging and bundled it all out to the trash. He knew it wasn't going back in the box 'til December!

So I put it on the dining room table and we went out and got some flowers to put in there. Each week or 10 days, Bunny sports a new bouquet.

Today it's fragrant white stock with some plumey, fluffy purple stuff. Adorable!!

While I was doing the Bunny bath at the sink I told my husband that I was terribly afraid I'd break this vase. It's tricky to pick up, but I've got that down, and it's tricky to get into the sink without hitting the ears so I have to move the faucet out of the way. I can do that. So he said to me, "Do you need a Bunny backup?"

And I laughed because we both know this reminds us of the time when my Mom moved from the big house in New Jersey to her little condo here in town, and when we cleaned out the pantry she had 9, count 'em, NINE jars of hard sauce, which she used to serve with dessert only on holidays. Some of them were several years old. Out they went, but the story of her having nine of them never went, it gets told and retold. And whenever anyone in my family buys two of something we tease and ask if they're sure they don't need maybe seven more. It's called "Hard Sauce Syndrome," and we all got it from Mom. HA!

So I said to my wonderful hubby, "No, darling, you don't have to buy me a backup, if I can live without my daughter (because she died) I can live if I break the Bunny."

He declared, "But I can fix this!" And he strode into his study and pulled up the receipt from when he first ordered Bunny and did it again!! Yes! Bunny will have a brother!

Rob said to me, "When his brother arrives, we'll take it out of the box to make sure he's traveled safely, then we'll pop him back in, and you won't have to be afraid that you will break his brother."

I think this man really loves me. Wow. I'm over the moon with this man! Thank you Robert Dale XO!

He has a brother coming! WOOT!
May we all be so lucky to have Earth Angels in our lives this way. Truly, it is these little, sweet things that touch my heart. I feel very blessed.

I don't know how long the link will last, but if you have a hankering for a Bunny of your very own, right now you can find one here - https://www.signals.com/?action=DETAIL&ITEM=HX3826&rrec=true You might just want to pick up a couple, lol.

Namaste

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

My Love Story - True Gift from Heaven

Blessings
We are each blessed, at certain points throughout our lives, no matter how hard, with some events and people and circumstances that are just plain gifts from Heaven, probably having to do with what we choose to sustain us as we come in to this Earth life, even before we get here. I believe we work with other spirits before we arrive, to agree on certain possibilities, and I believe we recognize each other when we encounter these mentors and allies and beloveds during our lifetimes here.

I am almost finished writing my book, Coming Alive After Death, and here, present a couple of chapters to whet your appetite, should you choose to explore more after it is published. These are not the opening chapters of the book.

Divine Connections happen' here xoxo
Divine Connections

We were so blessed to have my sweet husband in our lives, escorting us through this foray into uncharted territory with my daughter so sick. My husband is one of the most accepting people I've ever met, next to my sweet and gentle grandfather. He doesn't judge people, and he believes the best in them. He has faith that they can work out their troubles and though he is always available to talk with, and his perspectives are always generous and enlightened, he's not a meddler or a controlling person. Raising our four kids with him was amazing. We were a blended family, both of us having experienced divorce when our respective spouses became bored with us.

It was magical when we got together and has been pretty magical ever since. 


My Littles in our tiny house in Colorado
when I first became a single Mom xoxo
Jess was 7 and Torey was 9 years old.
When I moved from Colorado to Pennsylvania with my children as a single mother, we lived in a three-bedroom apartment for a couple of years. We found ourselves surrounded by lots of other single mother families, and many students. And I found that most of these mothers were bitter towards men and not really the kind of people I enjoyed spending time with. I love men. I believe the world is full of really good ones, and I can't sit around dissing them just because the one in my first marriage was not trustworthy.

So I started looking for a place to live that offered more of a neighborhood environment, with a mix of families. It had to allow pets, since I had a cat and wanted a dog, and it had to be small enough for me to comfortably afford the heat in winter, and easy to take care of and maintain both inside and out. I came across an ad in the paper for a duplex and arranged to see it early one morning.

When I walked into the modest living room just inside the front door, I heard myself saying "I'll take it!"


All I had seen was the floor, the windows, and the empty bookshelves when I heard myself say,
"I'll take it!"
This is exactly when divine forces clicked into motion, though I didn't know it at the time. 

Life-sustaining forces are everywhere.
I am absolutely certain of divine forces working through my life, to bring me opportunities, to place right in front of me just what I need when I need it. I believe in this for ALL of us. And as I grow older, I get better at listening, feeling, recognizing, and responding to these beautiful, life-sustaining forces. I will add here, that I don't believe these divine forces are meant to save us from death, because death comes to all of us, and the beauty in death is how we navigate it both with those we love who are dying, and the grace in the experience ourselves. I also have come to understand that death is merely transition to another kind of LIFE, so all that we are given is ultimately life-sustaining. 

The current tenant, who was showing me around said, "But don't you want to see the rest of it?"

I said, "Yes, but I'm sure I'll take it," because I had fallen in love with the immaculately finished gorgeous wooden floors, the wall of built-in bookshelves along the back of the living room, and the beautiful, very large, wooden, multi-paned windows punctuating the walls of every room in the house.

The tenant showed me around the rest of the duplex and though the third bedroom was very small, the place was just as beautiful upstairs as down. The backyard was small, but had a very old weeping cherry tree in one corner, and the cherry tree, viewable from the kitchen and dining rooms, bloomed fragrant white blossoms whose petals fluttered down and across the yard like springtime snowflakes. It was a dream come true to find an affordable place that felt like home. Outside my bedroom window was a tall, sturdy sugar maple tree that made the room glow pink as its leaves turned color with the cold winds of the coming winter. There were kids in the neighborhood, and lots of retired folks, single moms with dogs, and starter families. It was good.

My two children and I lived there for three years, and it was a very good home for us. I loved cooking in the tiny kitchen that overlooked the backyard, and the children and I ate at the dining room table I'd inherited from my grandparents when they passed away. Spaghetti dinners, late Sunday brunches, giggles and songs and stories. There was much laughter at that table, lots of crafting, homework, puzzle building, and so much of the sweetness of life.

Living room in the duplex was cozy.
The family that owned the other side of the duplex (we were just renting, with the dream of eventually owning) liked to spend time outside, and they had lots of barbecues. The father spent a lot of time in their backyard, gardening and tending to his beautiful plants, and they had a little custom-built pond with a tiny waterfall. The pond was filled with beautiful goldfish and water-plants. I could hear it from my open windows as I worked in the kitchen or basked in warm water and bubbles in our bathtub upstairs. Sometimes I'd look over and see the four of them, and dream of the day when our family would no longer be lopsided, missing the comfort of a loving paternal influence. I wanted to be like them.

Me at my desk in the little duplex living room.
During those years I spent a lot of time working, holding down a full-time job as well as doing regular freelance work in my off-hours. One night I was working at my computer, tucked into a corner of the living room and the doorbell rang. I never had any company so was curious to see who it could be. When I opened the door, I discovered that it was the father from the family next door, and he introduced himself and said, "I noticed that you left the lights on in your car. Would you like me to turn them off for you?"

"Oh!," I said, "no, I'll go do that right away. Thanks so much for letting me know." For the next few seconds we stared at each other awkwardly. Then he said goodnight and slipped away to join his beautiful family. As he left and I trotted out with my keys to turn off the headlights, I felt my solitude keenly, wondering if ever I would feel the wholeness of family again.

During the first year we lived there, I said hi to the neighbors once, and the mother drove my children to school a couple of times when it was thundering in the morning and I had to be at work by 8 a.m. Usually my children walked to school. I so appreciated the kindnesses of my little community. Though we didn't socialize, I'd sometimes find my driveway shoveled out after a hard snow, and once the father neighbor came over and sprayed a huge ant nest that was in our backyard, because the ants were finding their way into their kitchen next door.



One night while the family was out in their backyard barbecuing, my children came to me with a dead bird they had found. Together, we picked tiny wildflowers and a couple of nice big green leaves, and I gave them a garden trowel and went with them to the far corner of our yard, underneath the cherry tree. We dug a little hole and lined it with the leaves and flowers, and laid the bird to rest. I asked the children if they could think of something nice to say to send it on its way. They each, with very solemn faces, blessed the little bird and I did too. We gently covered the bird with soft earth, and I went to sit on the steps by the kitchen door that overlooked the backyard and my two lovely children stayed with the bird for a while longer. My daughter was about nine years old at the time, and my son, 11.

As I sat contemplating death so close to the life that was happening right next door, I heard my children start to sing, and I had to run inside to keep them from hearing the laughter that erupted from my belly, for they were singing, at the top of their lungs, with all the passion of innocent youth "FooOOOOr he's a jolly good fellow, for he's a jolly good fellow, for he's a jolly good fe-e-e-llow, which nobody can deny!"

Oh Lord, I'll never forget that delightfully sweet moment. What a treasure.

Were they too young to understand the solemnity of death? Or were they young enough to remember it's a time for celebration?

Celebration xo
As I am writing this book, I take little breaks, to go out on the porch and feel the warm sunshine, sniff the wind, and stretch my eyes across the expanse of trees in the distance. As I live and breathe, here is what happened to me just now.

I'm standing on the back porch, basking and sniffing and stretching my eyes, when I roll them down and what do I see? A little chipmunk, quite dead, that my kitty has brought to me. It's a gift, he thinks. And my heart sinks just a little. So I go into the garage and get my garden trowel and then I pick some lovely little flowers and a long, fat green leaf, and I pick up the chippy and carry everything out to the front of the house. I can't bury it in the backyard because I'm afraid the pups would be too interested.

The neighbors think I'm gardening. I dig the hole, line it with the lovely green leaf and tuck the little chippy into its soft bed. I place the flowers around it and check to make double sure it won't be awakening, miraculously recovered, before I push earth's blanket of soil over it. Nope. No chance of recovery.

And you know what I do then? Yes, I start softly singing, "Foooor he's a jolly good fellow. For he's a jolly good fellow. For he's a jolly good f-e-e-e-llow! Which nobody can deny." I sing it all the way through, and my heart feels warm. I picture Jess up in The Garden in the Sky, and she's picking Little Chippy up as he runs to her and they cuddle. I swear my kitty is in cahoots with Jess as I write this book. They're both hovering pretty close.


Joey Max when he was a kitten xo


Becoming Cinderella

Our lives went on, working, working, working, dreaming, sleeping, growing, and I would often sit outside on the steps with my coffee on Sunday mornings, soaking up the dappled sunshine and enjoying the peace of nature.

One morning the father from the other side of the duplex came out his back door, which was only a few feet to the side of my back door, and he said "Can I talk with you?"

I was in my bathrobe, which was perfectly decent, but my hair was a mess and I had not had my shower yet, so was not at my best for entertaining neighborly conversation, but something about him was quietly urgent, so I said yes, come on over. He sat on the step with me and shattered my illusions when he announced "My wife has asked me for a divorce." Oh, my heart sank to my toes to hear this, as I had thought them the most perfectly wonderful example of family. They were the stuff of my hopes and dreams, and I never would have imagined anything wrong. I didn't want for them to go through what our family had experienced!

He said, "I know you're a single mother, and you know more than I do about this kind of situation, so I'd like to ask you a question." I said, "Of course, however I can help you, I'm happy to share what I know."

"Do you think that the children need a relationship with both the mother and the father when a marriage dissolves?" he asked.

"If at all possible, and if it doesn't harm them, most certainly," I replied.

We talked for a bit longer and he went back home, and I went inside my little home, each to our separate chores and duties.

And that was the beginning, though I didn't know it. The beginning of Becoming Cinderella with divine forces at work.

The pups, Tristan, Rob's lab, and Tyler, my sheltie xoxo
We both had dogs. His family had a golden retriever and my beautiful sheltie loved to jump over the fence between our yards to go and play with their pup. The dogs would run shoulder-to-shoulder through the neighbor's backyard, chasing the children and running after balls, and whenever this happened I felt embarrassed that my dog was so shameless about trotting around where he didn't belong. To make sure that the dogs would be friendly to each other, I took to giving them dog biscuits whenever I saw them together. It was the first bond of friendship, the love that those two pups developed for each other.

Though the father had told me his wife wanted a divorce, she continued to live platonically in the duplex with them for many months, and one day she came out to sit on the steps outside her kitchen door. I spent a lot of time on my steps, and so I went to sit beside her and asked how things were going. I asked her if there was any chance of reconciliation between them and she adamantly replied that there was no chance of it. "I'm done with him," she said.

And as I went back into my home after our conversation, into my little kitchen, I felt so confused that she would reject a man like him. He seemed so very kind. Well it wasn't any of my business, so I stayed out of it until one day in the late, late summer, the father stood awkwardly outside of his kitchen door and said to me, "There's a little art festival in a town nearby, and I was thinking of going. Do you want to go?"

I had decided after my gut-wrenching, life-shattering divorce that I had no interest in any kind of a permanent relationship, and was not at all actively looking for a relationship, and I knew he was feeling vulnerable. I got ready to politely decline, but the words that came out of my mouth were not my own and I heard myself saying, "Yes. Let's go." 

What?! My brain was completely surprised at my response to his invitation and I went inside to change and get ready to go explore the little town I knew nothing about. Ah, to be around some art and music, after all the relentless hard work of the past year. I scrimped and saved and the children and I only went out for free things, like beautiful hikes. The only money I spent on entertainment was to rent movies, and we practically kept Blockbuster in business for that time, since it was affordable, and it was a fun way to spend time with the children.

The little neighborhood was good for my children, and they made friends, sometimes doing sleepovers, and I was grateful for their experience of normalcy in other people's homes.

This was a sleepover day for them both, so my neighbor and I headed for the festival in the early afternoon. As I sat in his car while he drove, it felt awkward, since I was so used to driving myself everywhere and being both the man and the woman in my household. My children's father was mostly absent, living in another state, having relationships with women, partying, and spending his leisure hours as though he'd always been single with no responsibilities. He paid only half of the child-support the courts had awarded me each month. I had no knowledge of how to press for the whole amount, and truth to tell, didn't want any contact with him that wasn't absolutely necessary, as he was unstable in character and behavior.

When my neighbor and I arrived at the festival, he parked and we stepped out into the warm sunshine to walk through the streets, which were lined with booths of beautiful craftware. There were puppet shows and street entertainers doing skits, and coffee and wonderful foods and for a little while I forgot the toil of rebuilding life for my little lopsided family. I felt grateful for the reprieve.

My neighbor and I walked down to the beautiful gazebo located in a park at the bottom of the hill in this charming little town, and there we sat, alone, together, quiet in the twilight. It was a romantic setting, with tiny white lights twinkling all around the roof of the gazebo and couples strolling around the park. But he was not yet divorced, and so we did not kiss. Not then. We did not touch, all day.

And when we got back to our duplex we went into our separate front doors and slept alone, knowing the other was not far away, but unreachable for oh so many reasons.

One of those dog-walkin' days just after a fresh snow.
We took to walking the dogs together and we walked all over God's half-acre. We covered miles and miles of sidewalks past beautiful homes and gardens. We took the pups hiking through sun-dappled forests. We walked in the rain and the snow and the sun and the day and the night. It was our only time together. We talked. We laughed. We shook snow-laden branches on each other and snapped water at each other from the branches in the rain. We sank into huge leaf piles along the sides of the roads in the autumn, and we kicked and crunched our way through the leaves when there weren't enough of them to sink down into. The pups conspired to keep us close to each other, frequently entwining their leashes so that the father bent over with his arms around me to untangle them.

After several weeks of this, we returned from our walks dreaming of a time when perhaps we would not have separate front doors.

Finally they divorced, she moved out, and shortly after that, we held hands for the first time. I remember we were walking the pups through a paved alleyway in a neighborhood not far from ours when he reached out and grabbed hold of my hand and my body shivered inside the whole way home. It was the best kind of shivers.

I remember the moment when I fell in love with him. We were in the woods with the dogs, and by this time, his two sons and my two children hiked with us, and we were talking about the beautiful, thick moss that covered the rocks and boulders. He laid his hand on top of some deep green, thick moss, and as I looked at that hand, I suddenly knew inside that I loved him. That I would love him forever. No matter what.

We had the most romantic courtship that ever the world has known, living beside each other in our duplex after his wife went off to pursue her dreams. He raised his kids, and I raised mine, and we lived parallel lives for two years. We never had to call each other on the phone because we were right next door, and as the relationship grew, we shared our spaces with all of the children, sometimes barbecuing in his backyard, sometimes eating together in my little dining room. The children were able to get to know each other without the enforced confinement of mutual territory, and it worked well for us all.

We wrote love letters, which I still have, and he would tuck a single purple flower from the butterfly bush in his backyard into each envelope. He would open my kitchen door just a crack and tuck my love letter into the door as he closed it, and it would be the first thing I'd see when I woke in the mornings, with time to read and reread as I sipped my coffee. I loved getting his letters and I loved writing to him.

The antique desk where he wrote my love letters xoxo
Vases and more vases!
In the warm growing seasons, he would bring me huge buckets and buckets and buckets of beautiful flowers from the trial gardens that he oversaw as a professor of horticulture at the university in our town. Sometimes he brought me so many flowers it took me hours to get them all into vases. I put them into every room of our home. Big flowers, little flowers, all over the dining room, living room, kitchen, bathroom, children's rooms, my bedroom. Everywhere! And they were much appreciated since for several years I couldn't afford to buy flowers but would sometimes treat us to just one. I scoured the antique shops for inexpensive vases and sometimes used our drinking glasses and milk pitchers to put these beautiful flowers in. Yes, he swept me right off my feet, and I've been happily swept for all these many years.


Happies!

Yep, that's Jess on the right : P

Sillies in the kitchen having a cake fight
Torey and Jess


Torey and Jess right before Jess moved to Portland

Alex and Danielle with Joey Max
Trevor
Rob and Jess
This is the man who walked with me to scatter the ashes of my daughter, the daughter that we partially raised together when he picked up the slack my ex-husband had left behind and stepped firmly into the role of male provider and loving head of our now balanced families. We married two years after attending the enchanting art festival.

To this day, 18 years after that first time, we always attend the annual art festival in the little town of Bellefonte, where our magic first began.

Magic man. Wonderful man. Lovely flower man. My man. My beautiful, kind, generous, loving man.


My Love
So you see, my book is not so much about death as about life. It is not an easy read, as there is pain, but there is such beauty, and there is hope, faith, connection, and some mindblowing revelations as well as true comfort. I will post when it becomes available.

Namaste